Day 566: Observing jealousy and the right way to deal with it - learning from 8 year old kid ( Nov 4, 2019)
Praying for her isn’t difficult. Wish she have new experience in bj! Life is about trying, learning and appreciating what you think that is not so pleasant...so you find something new everyday.
Pray you could be happy living the present moment. You are healthy and capable and humble. I feel that you are constantly improving yourself. Being honest with yourself is the happiest. I thank god for giving you that power.
I pray that claire could learn more. That’s my experience of her yesterday:
Jealousy start to appear in claire. She called popo and ask her back early because she said olivia is taking popo too long and she didn’t like it.
I told her if you want someone to love you. It isn’t to stop other to get close to her. It is you to love her so she knows you love her, she love you back. Tho she say it out loud she is jealous. The feeling isn’t so strong because i don’t recognise the feeling overwhelmed her mind. She forget very easily.
Then, I taught her to cut mushroom. She was all by herself. Then I found out she cut it differently as I asked her to. she said it is better like that. I scold her for 3 reasons:
She so scared with her head down when I ask her to repeat what she done wrong. She say it her own words and is so precise. She is smart.
She so bored and I suggest to go down to buy her some food to cheer her up. Then she said she want to walk more after buying food. We walk further to the park finding out the swing is too small for her.
I told her she can’t watch YouTube too long and should figure out doing other stuff. Going outdoor and walk is a good one and I ask her to remember that
At night, she taught me to play Siri, so it can recognise my voice only. I tell Siri: Siri I wanna die. Siri say would you need some counselling. Then I said, Siri call 911. She super scared and turn off Siri.
She said this freak her out like a 8 of 10. Then she scaled I scold her for the mushroom cutting is 7 of 10 and popo yell at her is like a 5 or 6.
Anyways. I enjoyed those moment and I prayed that you can absorb yourself in the moment with them.
I wanna say I might be late for Olivia. But things is never too late.
I pray you always enjoy your journey and god told me over many people: life is supposed to be fun even during difficult situations.
May god look upon you !
Think yourself to win. If you act like everybody. You become a nobody.
Day 539: Disaster after quitting masturbation
On oct 4 Friday, my family went on a trip to taiwan. That day was a day of social unrest. The law of refraining mask was deployed. ( 蒙面法😷）
That same day I was defeated by the doorbell of 141. I remember I was thinking about it the whole Friday afternoon, I was on the website 141. I have eliminated masturbation but then I got into the much worse doorbell situation.
I felt disappointed, self-doubt, self defeating thoughts came to my mind.
Yes, the doorbell is not a good message I sent to myself. The message is ugly, it is guilt, it is no self-restraint.
The question is what I decide to do about it? or I let me haunt myself for who I m? Can I be a good person anymore? Am I not good enough? These are the thoughts I have inside my mind.
mean the doorbell absolutely feels good but just for that moment. I was left with guilt for a long time just for the 5 min of pleasure. Is it worth it ?
What I decided to do?
I decided that I seek a long term solution that is to love my wife and develop a long term & strong relationship that I could rely on.
The lessons I learned is that I can use defeat and failure to fill myself and to haunt myself with negativity. OR to channel “the situation” towards positivity, think about a solution, think about the improvement I can make, so I can only become stronger after.
I have decided to go for long term solution, develop a good relationship, I no longer have to punish myself with the inner talk. The next thing is just to take action.
It is a great lesson learned.
I realized that life is fascinating. When you think you become a better you, something bad can happen.
When I thought I quit Masturbation, I attached to something much worse...
So what would you choose? To comeback even stronger & to make a even stronger decision?
I got rid of masturbation. BUT...it brings me to a even worse and evil situation - the doorbell.
My question is m I better off going back to masturbation? Or I take it as a great challenge to improve myself even better?
I experienced the pleasure, it is tempting to go back again & again. I already have so much fun only with my imagination.
For me to become a greater self, I need to take it on positively and not beating up on myself. Seeing things as a challenge rather than a defeat can help you to contribute more to the society and building a better version of you.
Think yourself to win. If you act like everybody. You become like anybody.
How did I stop 30 years of masturbation & Jacking-off?
I will make a video too ( stay tuned!)
Recently I cured my 30 year masturbation problem. If you are willing to spend time to finish this article. It is only a matter of time you cure yours. My article will sink deep into your memory and when you tried every effort and failed, don’t give up! Your subconscious mind will get to work and dig into every information you have about curing masturbation. If you failed and persist through the failures, you will eventually come to your own masturbation solution.
Note: Forgive me for the repeated use of the word “ masturbation” in all manners. I just want to make sure you find me when you sure masturbate! ( and looking for a solution)
There is a story behind this TGEC carnival between my wife and I.
and I need to share my story 3 years ago when my wife mentally breakdown when I landed a new job. She was completely heart-broken.....It was a good life-learning.
A project about being a property entrepreneur and motivation speaker. How I work from a job transforming into a business. I went through 3 business failures, broken relationship and on Apr 24, 2019. I invested my first property with 100% mortgage